Looking Back

I haven't visited this blog in a while... and reading these previous posts I updated years ago makes me feel nostalgic. I was 19 years old then, I remember my attitude was more energetic and now that almost 4 years has passed it seems I'm less surprised by simple beauties. My New York journey was definately a learning curve in so many ways I'm so glad I had the opportunity to explore the city. It was beautiful- I remember seeing, tasting, hearing, feeling and experiencing the city of people that celebrated life, maybe not always joyful but even the dirty streets of New York seemed to tell a story. I could hear my voice growing stronger and appreciating myself for who I was. I guess the application and acceptance for Parsons Design School and encountering the mecca of design also boosted my confidence, cause I realised talents that I didnt really know I had. It also affirmed my love for art, photography, architecture, history, music, people, fresh food, design, creativity and faith. I hope I can visit once again sometime and experience what it'd be like to live in amongst it. I will probably never get the opportunity to study overseas but I'm happy just fantasising about it anyway, cause I have duties and I know nothing beats being around loved ones...

I realised a clear sign of growing old is not the wrinkles, nor the greying hairstrands, but the signs of critical and judgemental mindset. When open mindedness is abandoned and change is unwelcomed. When stubbonness kicks in and blocks all views of simple beauties that surround our lives. When the cup starts looking half empty. I might not have wrinkles but I can tell my insides are getting old...but I hope not..too quickly :)

So here.. I think I want start writing this blog again after almost four years, hope it will last longer this time.

Hmm...I think shall call it... 'Dewey goes on a Treasure Hunt'

ps.. I'm not sure what happened to the comments.. ahh..what happened.. I really liked those comments by kirsten and smock.. Kirsten and smock you probably won't read this but I'm so thankful you've been by my side all these years.  I cannot thank you enough.. Love you guys heaps.. Also thanks eunsun too, hehe you probably won't read this either but I'm so grateful you're in my life, through the hurting and giggling times...  To Eunji and Migie too...my family too, you bring the most tears in my life both hurtful and joyful ones.. also to the wonderful new friends I've made in the more recent years...and lastly God ...right now I'm apathetic and I really doubt your existence in many ways.. I despise you for bringing suffering in my life..I get sick of your protocols.. but at the same time, I love you for who you've made me..how far you've brought me and showing me what things like hope, freedom, love and peace is..

I used to think I didn't have many friends, in comparison to others...
but I'm so thankful and I feel like a rich rich person with people like you with me...
It's more than enough...